NEED TO GET IT OUT

I dont know where to turn to find what Im looking for.

In harford county as long as you keep driving you'll find that you have driven in a complete circle.

And for a while my life was turning out like that, I would try, fail and then something else would land in my lap.

I live "on my own" now and I work at a job that I HAVE to work at to pay these bills of mine.

This job has consumed my life for the worst.

I want to sleep when everyone else sleeps.

I want to stay up all night and have to drag my self out of bed to go to work WHILE THE SUN IS OUT. And sleep when the sun goes down.

I hate having a separate day from everyone.

I want to move on but i dont know where I can go

Sometimes I want to go home

Sometimes I want to sccccrrrreeeeeeaaammm followed my hours of crying and ripping my hair out.....ok and sometimes I DO DO THAT

All I think about is how I want to leave this job.

I need to lower my living expectations, meaning RENT my rent needs to be lower meaning I need to up the roommate situation, also living somewhere were stimulation is a constant but GOOD stimulation..............

I wish I went away for college, I need to get away, I need to be thrown in a situation so i can conquor it and show who ever im working for that I am the SHIT cause I am the SHIT.

I want to go back to when I ruled the theatre at my college. I was hands on with all of the student productions, I was working day and night on building sets for the community ballet and musical shows, I was having the time of my life and its gone and Im not doing that anywhere for anyone. All be cause of money, I cant live for free therefor i cant work for free. I WANT TO WORK FOR FREEEE

DEPRESSION is making its way through my veins and I need to stop it.

NOW